Weight

I felt it on my shoulder.
The weight is indeed getting heavier and heavier.

I have no power and rights,
it's not about status or pride,
but the eyes that foresee the future fights.

I can always ignore all these.
I can always point it to you.
Because it's your responsible.

I can say it's ridiculous.
It is ridiculous that I care too much.
I carry up what's not mine.
It can be seen as I am very geh-poh.
But instead, I am just over caring.

If possible, I can change.
I can change into a person who don't care.
A person who only care for her own.
And yes, it is selfish, but a free bird like you.

These might be seen as anger but no.
It's disappointment.
It's hurtful.
It's helpless.

If this is the way you want,
Please go ahead.

Kindness is not for everyone.
It's not something you dump and I keep offering.

I can offer many many times.
To the infinity.

But, there are voices asking me to at least appreciate myself.

So I will do it now.

#KThxBye

Little do we know

Little do you know,
How grateful I am to have you.
How blessed I am to be loved by you.
How secure I am to know you'll not run away.


I thought...
That would be the first and last time I met you and hear from you.
That would be the first and last time to be touched by your voice.
That we will never ever know each other.


I bet you and me never thought of...
Their help would make everything possible.
Your help would be the important piece to the story.
My randomness would be the bricks that build things up.


Who knows...
The last raining season would be the starting point of our journey.
The random hi and bye we said meant so much to us now.
The simple smiles we had have caught us up.


A new story begins in the beginning of 2016.

Taste of the Cotton Candy

You're like a cotton candy,
So happy to see, so fluffy to feel.

You're like a cotton candy,
So sweet to taste but so soft it fades.

You're like a cotton candy,
Not solid enough for me to bite, but enough to memorise.

Your love is like a cotton candy at first,
It is so excited to see, but so vague to rely on.
So fluffy and lovely, but so easy to destroy.

Your promise is like cotton candy,
You say let time to prove me and I shall taste the sweetness in a bit.
You got me the cotton candy in my hand, smile to me, say "trust me".

A little time, air, sunshine, smile, and love. Cotton candy proves me love.
After sometimes cotton candy turns tough, rough but still sweet.

Time proves reliability, but at the same time brings problems to us.
But sweetness never fades.

You're like a cotton candy,
I'll love it no matter it's fresh or old.

Flower petals

You love me, you love me not, you love me...

Plucking off the flower petals does not answer the question at all.
You whispered to me: "I love you", you say you wanna prove it to me.

A flower's blooming season or the flower seed drops into the middle of the sea.
I choose to plant the flower into the middle of the sea.
You say okay.
I still expect the flower seed to swim to some island and started to grow, but it only last 2 days it sank and dead,

Just in one week, you whispered to me again, that you love me.
This time, my heart beats so hard.
I drop this flower seed in my flower pot, I wanna see the blooming season.
However, it rains so heavily that it flood the flower pot.

I see the flower seed runs to the other pot because there is no rain.

After years, finally, I put this seed into my flower pot.
However, the flower will never bloom.

I'm wounded and my heart scattered ...
You say love hurts, well I guess, I've loved.