Gravity

Is this a story, or is it a reality?

I couldn't look into your eyes and ask you why.

Your smile your care and your stare.

Will I feel love if you are no longer there.

It feels like everything will come to the end,

If I ever close my eyes.

Will day sustained and this feeling will never fade.

If I were to offer you my heart, will you ever stay there?

I wonder is this called love,

Or this is just an illusion that you built.

Will it be the thinnest ice-floor,

Which I'm going to step on it and fall into the freezing world?

I'm moving away and asking myself to forget.

But my footsteps get heavier and I wanted to stay more,

Just because memories you built are heavy and they are tying on my leg.

Please send someone from the sky to lift me and leave your gravity.

You're once the person from the sky who pulled me up.

Only I realise you are the gravity of another world that hold me tight.

Your gravity squeezes me from inside out that I would hardly survive if I leave.
Is there other world that have the same gravity as you did that will keep me alive?

If I ever leave, will I survive this time?
If I ever leave, will the memories stay?
If I ever leave, will your gravity needs me?
If I ever leave, will it be a beautiful ending?

Matters of choice?

To be perfect for a decision wasn't easy, as there is no dead-angle for a case. It wasn't a triangle, rectangle or pentagon. It can be more than a circle, without boundaries.

No limitation of possibilities.

For success or failure.

If we're there to consider each and every single possiblities, I wonder which end of this earth it can stop. However, choice will be what matters the most. Each and every steps will always be the risk we take, like throwing ten dices at once. Possibilities are vary, you can never expect what's next (unless you have that special ability maybe, haha). 

Maybe as routine, we are making decision everyday, we will never realise that there are so much possibilities. Or maybe, it is out of our concern.. or we just don't care?

Sometimes we really wanna care and wish that we can make a good decision that is flawless to everyone, but the good might not be the good for certain people and some act of "perfect" may not be "perfect" too.

Let's look at this, maybe you are a person who like people to tell you the truth instead of hiding, especially when you are dealing with your spouse, i suppose. You're a open and a considerate person (your spouse's good perception of you). So, as your spouse sees you trying to prepare dishes for the family members as you try hard to suit their flavours, he/she thinks that you can actually relax a little. So he/she is trying to make you relax by telling you that you can just cook anything you wish, there is no need of always being too considerate. However, you think that it is so important and cannot be ignored. Because considering others are greater than your stress. But, in other angle, you do not like stress as stress makes you depressed. Your consideration makes the others feel that you're always concealing yourself, covering yourself for something you don't wished for.

Ouch, my brain hurts. There is more than these possibilities. Seriously, to make yourself great for everyone is slightly impossible. So do other people, they can never be that perfect and fit you too, 

People always say "be true, be yourself" but at the same time, they say "Don't hurt others". Well, to be true might not be not hurtful, be considerate doesn't mean not hurtful too.

There is no boundaries for possibilities, beyond circles of estimation. I would like to call it the beyond-angles haha.

Well, what's left is the significance of the matter to you. Judgement is everywhere, chill and focus on your path. Your love for yourself is the securest things on earth, care for yourself if others couldn't. Let's just be a little hurtful a little cheerful to colour up lives. 

At least some ups and downs to make fun like the roller coaster. Surprises are good. *wink*

-END-

Stay fit by eating? You are not dreaming.

If you have to choose only ONE from the below, which will you choose?

Will you choose this tasty grilled chicken with juicy cherry tomatoes?

OR

Will you choose to have a perfect body shape?

Dilemma hits my head everytime I see this kind of question.

Good food gives me happiness, but upset my body shape.

Good body shape gives me confidence in dressing, but I have to upset my stomach.

 We just couldn't have both at the same time.

BUT

What if I say you can have both now?

Yes! It is possible that you can have both a pretty body and good food at the same time! Are you excited? Because I definitely am! 

Talking about a pretty body shape, what comes to your mind? Lose weight? Stop eating? Burn fats? Do tons of exercises? Taking pills? Or it is an impossible mission to you?

Exercise seems to be the best way to keep fit and healthy at the same time. However, without controlling the food you eat, you will be eating all the "weight" back to your body. 

So, to keep a fit body shape in a healthy condition, here are 5 alternative ways for you. You know what? The 5 alternative ways are all foods that can help you in losing weight. Let's see what they are.

1. Cacao Powder (Chocolate powder)

Dark Cacao Power is also known as "dark chocolate powder" without sugar. Yeah, people always says that consuming chocolate will make you fat right? Well, happy for people who love chocolate flavour like I do, we got our savior here! 

How does it work?

The dark cacao powder provides high antioxidant and polyphenols which help to improve digestion (with lesser body waste, the lighter you will be). Other than that, it also helps to keep cardiovascular health and control your blood pressure and blood glucose level. It not only enhances the taste but keeping us slim and healthy.

Tips: Add a tablespoon of Cacao powder into your smoothie and yogurt.

(Smoothie with cacao powder)

2. Cinnamon Powder

Cinnamon is a kind of spice which often used in enhancing the flavour of desserts. Can you imagine that it can help in reducing weight? 

How does it work?

Cinnamon contains mineral and fibre that our body needs each day. It can help to maintain healthy body weight and smoothen the bowel movement by just a tablespoon a day. 

Tips: Add a tablespoon of cinnamon into your honey lemon tea. It may sound weird, but the effect is going to be great.

Anyway, let me share you a tasty little recipe that combines the use of cacao powder and cinnamon powder here. Perhaps you can consider it as your breakfast next day!

Firstly, get your ingredients ready!

Then, you just need to put all these ingredients into a jar and keep it into your fridge!

 It is that simple. 

I've tried it. It really tastes good, at the same time it is healthy and easy to be prepared! It is suitable for people who are a heavy-eater like me.

3. Turmeric (also known as "kunyit" in the Malay language)

Well, you may not be familiar with the picture showed above. What if I say it always appear in our Malaysian food? Such as..

Curry! (My favourite)

The Dal that we usually eat with roti canai.

Familiar with it now? 

*Well, I'm hungry to talk about it now.*

Did not realise that the foods we are so familiar with are containing substant that going to burn our fats right? It's okay, it's not too late to know it now. Haha.

How does it works?

Turmeric is one of the anti-inflammatory foods which contains antioxidant. The anti-inflammatory food is believed to minimize the carbohydrate and sugar level that you consume, therefore, burn up the fats in your body.

Tips: Other than the foods showed above, you can also add turmeric as seasoning to meats (preferably lean meat) before you cook. Maybe you can make a turmeric grilled chicken?

(Turmeric Grilled Chicken)

4. Coconut Oil

Coconut oil? What comes into our mind is "oil" equals to "fat", how is it possible in assisting us in losing weight?

How does it works?

Coconut oil serves more saturated fat compared to the normal cooking oil and it is considered as healthy fat. Other than that, it is rich in fatty acids which make you feel full easily and increase your body metabolism. It suppresses your appetite and  burns your body fat at the same time. 

Tips: Use coconut oil in your daily cooking. Food will still taste good without blocking your journey to a healthier and slimmer body. 

5. Honey

Who says that sweet food is going to trouble us with fat? Honey is sweet, but it is going to help us in weight loss. But not all honey is going to benefit you, the best choice will be raw organic honey.

How does it works?

Honey is rich in enzymes and antioxidant which keeps your digestive system works happily. Body with a good digestive system is definitely helping you to slim down without much effort other than eating.

Tips: Add honey into the water or lemon drinks to serve as honey lemon drinks. You may also add it to the waffle or fruit as you wish.

(Honey Lemon drink)

(Honey waffle)

  Yummy. Together with these tasty foods, you won't  feel that you are actually on a weight loss programme, aren't you?

Although you will be losing weight by consuming these foods, however, bear in mind that these foods are just assisting you in your journey of keeping fit. Balance diet and exercise are still needed for a healthier body.

Let's grab our foods and start our mouth exercise now for a greater body shape.

Stay happy, stay fit! Enjoy.

How to be not

How we can be not when we are just so attached?

How I'm gonna leave when I'm so into it?

How you gonna lost it, when it is not even yours?


Sometimes, the time we went through aren't the measurement of our relationship.
The things we said, aren't the only thing that filled up our space.
The roads that we ran together will not equal to the future that we are going to face together.
Those laughs in the air aren't only because of you and I.
The moment was not the only frame in your life, but maybe mine.


Are these the act of kindness that everyone honoured to get from you?
Are these representing the real you?
Or, this is just a mask that you're wearing..?

That will crack the ground I'm standing right now into pieces and let me fall to the infinite core of the earth........

Is a dream that gonna wake me anytime from now?
It is the nightmare that gonna happen real soon or the sweetdream that I'm going to wake up from?

Will the bubble last forever if I never gonna move anyway further?
Or.. I should move faster and create more bubbles before breaking this one..?

Will it be a sweetdream that turn into reality somehow..?
I choose to believe it as a NO.

Goodnight.

-END-

Can't be spoken

Do you know the feeling of "love that cannot be spoken"?

It is like the blood capillaries and the blood, water and bottle, or maybe the pencil and pen.
It is so close, but they will never ever be one.
They are not the cotton and water, the sauce and meat or the voice and music..
They can't be mixed, which is the fact.

Getting to be so close with someone, but you know there's the boundary between you two.
You know that it is the edge that can never be crossed.
You know that's the limit you can go.

Are you the one and only who feel this closeness?
Are you the one who started to climb so near to the edge?
Are you the one who almost fall into the opposite world which could hurt you so much?

Do this worth so much to you.. or is this the choice you would go for?

No. Can I blame the opposite that keep pulling me with its strong gravity?
The gravity that I couldn't resist to fell to.
The gravity that makes my footstep weaker and fall into its hug.

If.. you stop, will I feel good?
If.. you aren't there to pull me anymore, will I miss you?

What's the end of our story?
I don't wish to know.

But if the world could stop,
I wish to be stuck at the time frame where we are together,
When there is no second thought of pulling back.
When there is no boundary being felt.
When the moon and stars shine brighter when we look into the night sky.

That's the most beautiful moment, when I do not need to avoid and being afraid of falling.

-END-

How it'd be?

Is it the shape you see the volume it holds?
Is the word you said the feeling you hold?
Is the feeling I feel right now the love you wanna give?

What we always see, might not be the thing that it wanna present or mean. But we judge.
Judge may be a good thing, of course, may not be good. Without judging, how we gonna make a decision? But with judgement, doesn't mean we will be correct. Will things just go better because of our judgement.....?

There are always words and judgements from others when we became the subject. You may act yourself, but in their eyes, you may not mean that to them.
Different mirror reflects you in different angles.
Different colours spectacles watch you in different colours.
You may be a super sweetheart or devil without acting on it.
Because not everyone sees bad in you, or only sees bad in you.
It's about choice..

While writing these.. suddenly there are two people that pop up in my mind.
A girl that I've known for 2 years, and a guy that I that I just know for a month.
Thought of knowing longer, I might get used to the choice she used to see me. But, it's her choice to view and act on me. Which is a big contrast for now vs 2 years ago. From a pink glasses into a black one.
Now, here is another one that I just know for a month. It's his choice to view in any angle, but he chose to view me in this way. A pink one too. I wondering, will it be the same after two years? Will you change too?

Am I the one who changed, or others changed?
Am I the cause of the happenings..?
Is the shape you see in me the volume that I really hold to you?
Are the words and acts that you said and did the things you wished because of who am I?
Am I feeling the right feel that you trying to build in me?

Let this be the myth, the guess, the secret.
Let it flow in the river of my life.

I like you, mysteries.
#wink

- End -

No-sense (Song Story 1)

I turned my head and stares into the ticking alarm clock, realising that I woke slightly earlier than the alarm clock I set. Rolling myself into my soft blanket with the pillows around me. I turned my head to my left side, hmm.. where is he?

I comb my long fringe backward using my fingers, pulling my shirt that slight down from my shoulder. I walked out from my room, looking around for him. Then, I saw him sitting in the living room's floor. I went to his back and hug him from his back. I put my head at his shoulder, blowing my breath on his neck. How long we did not cuddle since he started this job. The job that leads him to million dollar's income per month. So, is that means that the job is more important than anything.. Or is it because we're just too stable in this 6 years relationship and we start not to worry about it anymore?

He sighed, without looking at me. Although we are just so near, but his heart is far like the stars that I couldn't hold. I hold on to my breath, close my eyes to avoid my tears from flowing to his shirt. He is too bright, too shine, too..perfect for my life. He shines bright in his way. Look at me, am I too dull to stay beside him..? Am I blocking his way to shine..?

Finally he speaks......."Dear, I'm gonna go for a meeting tonight, I will not be home for 3days okay?". Maybe I misinterpret, but I could say he is just informing, I could just cancel the question mark in his sentence. I sound softly, letting him know I get his message. My feeling was heavy, like the gravity just pulling me down to the earth and stop letting me to follow the stars in the sky.

I let go my hand that hugging him.. slowly I move myself away from him. Dear, I love you and I miss you.. 

I return to our bedroom, pressing the words in my heart that almost ran out from my mouth. I lie on the bed, tears dripped. I was afraid... afraid of losing the love we have. 

Maybe girl is just being sensitive, needing the feeling of secure.

When will be the last step you take, that leave me forever? Can you stay till our last breath, even we are fighting for the oxygen left on the earth?

Things and words just keep on running through my brain and then I cross it out again. Maybe, I just need to talk to him. These are part of the words that came to me in this one month, as he is just too busy to communicate with me, for almost half year i guess?

Suddenly, he walked into our room. I covered my face using the blanket and turned into side position. I wonder, do he really cared about me. He sat on the bed, next to me. He hugged me, which really surprised me, but as a stubborn person I don't react to his action. We are separated by a piece of blanket but at this moment.. I feel that our heart was just so close, like the first time we ever hugged.

I still keep quiet, but he started to speak.. and what's from his mouth made me cried.
"Dear.. I'm leaving by 8pm. This is the meeting that able me to adjust my working schedule for you. Dear, I love you.. I'm sorry that I might left you out for this half year, but I miss you every single time whenever I'm having a break. I know our love is strong, and I promise that I will hold your hand no matter what. You've been thinking about whether I will leave you or not right? I would say no. How can I let you have the opportunity to gasp for the oxygen left on the earth alone? I'm gonna fight for oxygen with you, until the last breath. Wait me home alright?"

He pulled away the blanket on me and kissed on my head. Our eyes connected after so long. He.. this man just answered all my doubt. I can't help hugging him harder than ever.

We hold our hand once again, walk to the most familiar mamak stall with my ordinary housewife look and his unordinary househusband look. I smelled love again.

A loud horn and a painful hit. I looking at him, he smiled.

"Will you marry me?".
"Yes I do".

We hold our hand harder before our last breathe.

"See you later".
" See you later, love".

That's our last conversation before we meet again, Afterlife.

- END-

Music listened while writing this story: https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=cFvLq3rPeTk