The word is running in my mind again and again. No matter what's your idea and no matter what'd inspired you, what ends up is what you've expressed. Expressing wasn't as easy as I thought, well it might not be as complicated as I thought too.
Here come the flashbacks of performing. I was on the stage, spotlight was on me and I'm the only one who focused by 200 pairs of eyes. They said, hug the stage and make it yours and perform like what you are, because you're the only star shining at the second. I shivered before moving my first step onto the stage...... "Can I make it?"
Heart beating 100km/h kinda speed that gonna kill me anytime. Sweat like the fast flowing waterfall and any second may flood the hall. #maybe thats just a wrong thought and estimation as I'm too nervous# Yea, so times really flies, I just step onto the stage, blablabla, not focusing, not realising, not breathing perhaps? I'm done.
The echo of claps was filled. I take my steps and bow.
Well, am I expressing myself? Am I expressing my art? Actually no, I'm just doing for the sake of doing it because I do not have a chance to run away from this. To be true, I don't even know what am I doing on the stage. People just clap for the sake of ending a performance. "LOL"
Then.. what's expressing?
Somehow, I think that expressing is based on a strong base - Confidence. Trust in yourself is so important. Only when you trust what you know, what's your idea, what you wanna bring to the audience, what you've got and lastly is that you can make it.
Without that GODDESS CONFIDENCE, whatever you have is nothing because what people can only see and appreciate is what you showed. You are the one who shows the "POSSIBILITY" of something.
Sometimes, I may find that life is about proving and proving. Making trust and making promises to come alive.
Be confident to stand as who you are, be confident to fall and stand up again. Human makes mistakes but jusy promise to learn from it, then it shall be fine. Be confident, is the basic of trusting yourself. If you don't trust yourself, who will?
Yeah, undeniable, I'm afraid of failure too. Who cares? Failure is the only thing that make us uniquely standing and making us special and view things at different perspectives from others. Why not we make these mistakes once so that we are filled with experience? Don't you heard the old words said that "experience is priceless and it is uniquely captured that not everyone can own the same one"? *wink*.
So, trust yourself, express yourself, show up! You'll be the best in your world.
(Express yourself, out of nobody to somebody in your world)
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