Flower petals

You love me, you love me not, you love me...

Plucking off the flower petals does not answer the question at all.
You whispered to me: "I love you", you say you wanna prove it to me.

A flower's blooming season or the flower seed drops into the middle of the sea.
I choose to plant the flower into the middle of the sea.
You say okay.
I still expect the flower seed to swim to some island and started to grow, but it only last 2 days it sank and dead,

Just in one week, you whispered to me again, that you love me.
This time, my heart beats so hard.
I drop this flower seed in my flower pot, I wanna see the blooming season.
However, it rains so heavily that it flood the flower pot.

I see the flower seed runs to the other pot because there is no rain.

After years, finally, I put this seed into my flower pot.
However, the flower will never bloom.

I'm wounded and my heart scattered ...
You say love hurts, well I guess, I've loved.

Everything in the sea that is nothing

Do you ever feel that somebody has meant everything to you?
The person has filled up your heart and you feel like the person is everything you got?

However, there is a saying..
"Water is everything to a fish, but fish is not everything to the water.
Sea is everything to the water, but water is not everything to the sea."

Not to break your heart, but just to remind you that you might not the "everything" to the person. Nothing is fair and no rules say that one must be your mirror.

Then, if you know this is happening.. will you still treating this person as everything and giving the best to this person unconditionally? What's the reason you doing all these? Win the person's heart, have some motives behind or you just loving the person?

Talk about myself, I just feel like a Remora fish. A Remora fish that needs protection from the shark, taking shark as everything to protect me. However, the shark does not need me at all. My existence may not be anything at all. Maybe, not even a small influence in its life. Then, what can I do for the shark? Other than thanking, appreciating and keep on asking for help? Other than keep on loving more and more, missing deeper and deeper and stalking frequent and frequent?

My dear shark,
I wonder if the Remora fish wasn't under you anymore, will you ever feel lonely?
I wonder if the Remora fish left you, will you ever realise it?
I wonder if the Remora fish never come back, will you ever miss it?
I wonder if you want the Remora fish to leave so you don't get a shadow that always following you?

They say fish has only 7seconds of memory, this short term of memory, how it can always remember that staying with the shark will keep it safe? Which makes it always return to the shark.
Why Remora fish still remembering you, dear shark.. why?

Dear Remora Fish,
Do you wanna change a place to hide yourself?
Can you be independent now to fight the world?
Will you be strong and turn into a shark someday?

Under the sea world, once living this shark and remora fish that swim together for months and they get lost in their way. They lost each other.
Will the Remora fish still need the shark?
Will the shark miss the Remora fish or realising that it needs Remora fish too?

I don't know. Let's see the next chapter of the sea story after 3months maybe?
Let God to make the decision on how the story goes.

-END-

Gravity

Is this a story, or is it a reality?

I couldn't look into your eyes and ask you why.

Your smile your care and your stare.

Will I feel love if you are no longer there.

It feels like everything will come to the end,

If I ever close my eyes.

Will day sustained and this feeling will never fade.

If I were to offer you my heart, will you ever stay there?

I wonder is this called love,

Or this is just an illusion that you built.

Will it be the thinnest ice-floor,

Which I'm going to step on it and fall into the freezing world?

I'm moving away and asking myself to forget.

But my footsteps get heavier and I wanted to stay more,

Just because memories you built are heavy and they are tying on my leg.

Please send someone from the sky to lift me and leave your gravity.

You're once the person from the sky who pulled me up.

Only I realise you are the gravity of another world that hold me tight.

Your gravity squeezes me from inside out that I would hardly survive if I leave.
Is there other world that have the same gravity as you did that will keep me alive?

If I ever leave, will I survive this time?
If I ever leave, will the memories stay?
If I ever leave, will your gravity needs me?
If I ever leave, will it be a beautiful ending?

Matters of choice?

To be perfect for a decision wasn't easy, as there is no dead-angle for a case. It wasn't a triangle, rectangle or pentagon. It can be more than a circle, without boundaries.

No limitation of possibilities.

For success or failure.

If we're there to consider each and every single possiblities, I wonder which end of this earth it can stop. However, choice will be what matters the most. Each and every steps will always be the risk we take, like throwing ten dices at once. Possibilities are vary, you can never expect what's next (unless you have that special ability maybe, haha). 

Maybe as routine, we are making decision everyday, we will never realise that there are so much possibilities. Or maybe, it is out of our concern.. or we just don't care?

Sometimes we really wanna care and wish that we can make a good decision that is flawless to everyone, but the good might not be the good for certain people and some act of "perfect" may not be "perfect" too.

Let's look at this, maybe you are a person who like people to tell you the truth instead of hiding, especially when you are dealing with your spouse, i suppose. You're a open and a considerate person (your spouse's good perception of you). So, as your spouse sees you trying to prepare dishes for the family members as you try hard to suit their flavours, he/she thinks that you can actually relax a little. So he/she is trying to make you relax by telling you that you can just cook anything you wish, there is no need of always being too considerate. However, you think that it is so important and cannot be ignored. Because considering others are greater than your stress. But, in other angle, you do not like stress as stress makes you depressed. Your consideration makes the others feel that you're always concealing yourself, covering yourself for something you don't wished for.

Ouch, my brain hurts. There is more than these possibilities. Seriously, to make yourself great for everyone is slightly impossible. So do other people, they can never be that perfect and fit you too, 

People always say "be true, be yourself" but at the same time, they say "Don't hurt others". Well, to be true might not be not hurtful, be considerate doesn't mean not hurtful too.

There is no boundaries for possibilities, beyond circles of estimation. I would like to call it the beyond-angles haha.

Well, what's left is the significance of the matter to you. Judgement is everywhere, chill and focus on your path. Your love for yourself is the securest things on earth, care for yourself if others couldn't. Let's just be a little hurtful a little cheerful to colour up lives. 

At least some ups and downs to make fun like the roller coaster. Surprises are good. *wink*

-END-

Stay fit by eating? You are not dreaming.

If you have to choose only ONE from the below, which will you choose?

Will you choose this tasty grilled chicken with juicy cherry tomatoes?

OR

Will you choose to have a perfect body shape?

Dilemma hits my head everytime I see this kind of question.

Good food gives me happiness, but upset my body shape.

Good body shape gives me confidence in dressing, but I have to upset my stomach.

 We just couldn't have both at the same time.

BUT

What if I say you can have both now?

Yes! It is possible that you can have both a pretty body and good food at the same time! Are you excited? Because I definitely am! 

Talking about a pretty body shape, what comes to your mind? Lose weight? Stop eating? Burn fats? Do tons of exercises? Taking pills? Or it is an impossible mission to you?

Exercise seems to be the best way to keep fit and healthy at the same time. However, without controlling the food you eat, you will be eating all the "weight" back to your body. 

So, to keep a fit body shape in a healthy condition, here are 5 alternative ways for you. You know what? The 5 alternative ways are all foods that can help you in losing weight. Let's see what they are.

1. Cacao Powder (Chocolate powder)

Dark Cacao Power is also known as "dark chocolate powder" without sugar. Yeah, people always says that consuming chocolate will make you fat right? Well, happy for people who love chocolate flavour like I do, we got our savior here! 

How does it work?

The dark cacao powder provides high antioxidant and polyphenols which help to improve digestion (with lesser body waste, the lighter you will be). Other than that, it also helps to keep cardiovascular health and control your blood pressure and blood glucose level. It not only enhances the taste but keeping us slim and healthy.

Tips: Add a tablespoon of Cacao powder into your smoothie and yogurt.

(Smoothie with cacao powder)

2. Cinnamon Powder

Cinnamon is a kind of spice which often used in enhancing the flavour of desserts. Can you imagine that it can help in reducing weight? 

How does it work?

Cinnamon contains mineral and fibre that our body needs each day. It can help to maintain healthy body weight and smoothen the bowel movement by just a tablespoon a day. 

Tips: Add a tablespoon of cinnamon into your honey lemon tea. It may sound weird, but the effect is going to be great.

Anyway, let me share you a tasty little recipe that combines the use of cacao powder and cinnamon powder here. Perhaps you can consider it as your breakfast next day!

Firstly, get your ingredients ready!

Then, you just need to put all these ingredients into a jar and keep it into your fridge!

 It is that simple. 

I've tried it. It really tastes good, at the same time it is healthy and easy to be prepared! It is suitable for people who are a heavy-eater like me.

3. Turmeric (also known as "kunyit" in the Malay language)

Well, you may not be familiar with the picture showed above. What if I say it always appear in our Malaysian food? Such as..

Curry! (My favourite)

The Dal that we usually eat with roti canai.

Familiar with it now? 

*Well, I'm hungry to talk about it now.*

Did not realise that the foods we are so familiar with are containing substant that going to burn our fats right? It's okay, it's not too late to know it now. Haha.

How does it works?

Turmeric is one of the anti-inflammatory foods which contains antioxidant. The anti-inflammatory food is believed to minimize the carbohydrate and sugar level that you consume, therefore, burn up the fats in your body.

Tips: Other than the foods showed above, you can also add turmeric as seasoning to meats (preferably lean meat) before you cook. Maybe you can make a turmeric grilled chicken?

(Turmeric Grilled Chicken)

4. Coconut Oil

Coconut oil? What comes into our mind is "oil" equals to "fat", how is it possible in assisting us in losing weight?

How does it works?

Coconut oil serves more saturated fat compared to the normal cooking oil and it is considered as healthy fat. Other than that, it is rich in fatty acids which make you feel full easily and increase your body metabolism. It suppresses your appetite and  burns your body fat at the same time. 

Tips: Use coconut oil in your daily cooking. Food will still taste good without blocking your journey to a healthier and slimmer body. 

5. Honey

Who says that sweet food is going to trouble us with fat? Honey is sweet, but it is going to help us in weight loss. But not all honey is going to benefit you, the best choice will be raw organic honey.

How does it works?

Honey is rich in enzymes and antioxidant which keeps your digestive system works happily. Body with a good digestive system is definitely helping you to slim down without much effort other than eating.

Tips: Add honey into the water or lemon drinks to serve as honey lemon drinks. You may also add it to the waffle or fruit as you wish.

(Honey Lemon drink)

(Honey waffle)

  Yummy. Together with these tasty foods, you won't  feel that you are actually on a weight loss programme, aren't you?

Although you will be losing weight by consuming these foods, however, bear in mind that these foods are just assisting you in your journey of keeping fit. Balance diet and exercise are still needed for a healthier body.

Let's grab our foods and start our mouth exercise now for a greater body shape.

Stay happy, stay fit! Enjoy.

How to be not

How we can be not when we are just so attached?

How I'm gonna leave when I'm so into it?

How you gonna lost it, when it is not even yours?


Sometimes, the time we went through aren't the measurement of our relationship.
The things we said, aren't the only thing that filled up our space.
The roads that we ran together will not equal to the future that we are going to face together.
Those laughs in the air aren't only because of you and I.
The moment was not the only frame in your life, but maybe mine.


Are these the act of kindness that everyone honoured to get from you?
Are these representing the real you?
Or, this is just a mask that you're wearing..?

That will crack the ground I'm standing right now into pieces and let me fall to the infinite core of the earth........

Is a dream that gonna wake me anytime from now?
It is the nightmare that gonna happen real soon or the sweetdream that I'm going to wake up from?

Will the bubble last forever if I never gonna move anyway further?
Or.. I should move faster and create more bubbles before breaking this one..?

Will it be a sweetdream that turn into reality somehow..?
I choose to believe it as a NO.

Goodnight.

-END-

Can't be spoken

Do you know the feeling of "love that cannot be spoken"?

It is like the blood capillaries and the blood, water and bottle, or maybe the pencil and pen.
It is so close, but they will never ever be one.
They are not the cotton and water, the sauce and meat or the voice and music..
They can't be mixed, which is the fact.

Getting to be so close with someone, but you know there's the boundary between you two.
You know that it is the edge that can never be crossed.
You know that's the limit you can go.

Are you the one and only who feel this closeness?
Are you the one who started to climb so near to the edge?
Are you the one who almost fall into the opposite world which could hurt you so much?

Do this worth so much to you.. or is this the choice you would go for?

No. Can I blame the opposite that keep pulling me with its strong gravity?
The gravity that I couldn't resist to fell to.
The gravity that makes my footstep weaker and fall into its hug.

If.. you stop, will I feel good?
If.. you aren't there to pull me anymore, will I miss you?

What's the end of our story?
I don't wish to know.

But if the world could stop,
I wish to be stuck at the time frame where we are together,
When there is no second thought of pulling back.
When there is no boundary being felt.
When the moon and stars shine brighter when we look into the night sky.

That's the most beautiful moment, when I do not need to avoid and being afraid of falling.

-END-