Go ahead

Egg came first or the chicken came first?

It rain first only it form a cloud or it form a cloud only it rain?

You are the cause of problem or the problem is the cause?

I'm low confidence since young or it was built later?

"Hey.. I'm Hui Xuan, a Malaysian, turning 20.

I'm studying Corporate Comm.

I'm a part-time music instructor.

Currently joining a music event company.

And I.....love arts, especially drawing."

"Ow, hey, why you love arts so much but you don't embrace it?"

"You love corporate comm?"

"Wow, you must be great in music aren't you?"

lalalala... yeap, questions over and over again.

Thanks to myself who chose the path.

These are questions I often heard, and I do ask myself..

"Do I love what I'm doing right now?"

"I don't know.."

Roll my brain juice back to the origin..

I'm asking almost everyone do I suit to do these or that..

I just need confirmation so so so much.

I couldn't express myself and be daring to choose what I really want.

(Arts is the only place where I trust myself so much)

I care. I care how people view me.

I'm more like showing what I do, instead of doing it for myself.

Even if I doing for myself, I need other's confirmation..

I'm limited.

I'd put myself into a cage.

A cage which depends on how people dip me into the water..

How deep they dip, how fast I die in the way they like.

Until someone told me..

"Huixuan, you really need to trust yourself and your ability.

You are unique on this earth... Please do for yourself in this short life..

Leave no regrets. Continue to build the uniqueness in you."

Yea.. how many tons of regrets I left in the past?

How many times I've let go the chance for the best me?

When I'm willing to stop my eyes from looking for confirmation and just start doing the best for myself?

I'm 20, let say I can live up to 70..

I left 50years..

How many times more I can waste in my life..?

Maybe, this is the best time to rearrange myself for the best future.

Maybe it's time to rain to form the rainbow..

Give up the clouds to turn into rains and get myself a rainbow.

Good Luck Hui Xuan,

All the best..

Hope to see your growth in near future.

With Love,

20 years old Hui Xuan.

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